I'm sure there are a lot of other stuff i can write about my childhood but for the moment i just want to focus on the most significant moments in my life that have had the greatest impact on me....
The start of my adolescence was fairly normal, i had lots of friends, did lots of socialising, went to parties, just had fun like any other normal teenager. This period didn't last long though. This is when things started going downhill. My mum was always the kind, caring but cool mum. Apart from being mother and daughter we were great friends who were joined at the hip. This may have been because she was my primary carer but i think we just got along great and she was always fun to be with. I try not to think about the time when changes started to occur in her. I can remember one night when my mum went out somewhere and my dad and sister sat me down and told me she most likely had a serious mental illness and that my dad had been trying to get some help for her. That time too, was a bit blurred but i remember at the time i couldn't really understand it as i couldn't see a dramatic change. I guess i was wrong - well, i was only 14 at the time! Her behaviour became increasingly erratic and bizarre. She would get paranoid about little things and she partly stopped caring for me physically which was extremely hard to cope with when she was the only person to have looked after me. Looking back, everything i was going through made school life difficult. I turned into quite a nasty person, i would talk about people behind their backs, bullied a few people and generally wasn't a nice person. Because of this, there was a period where i had no friends, i just sat there all myself on breaks. People did not like me. I was just really unhappy.
